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And just like that...I'm back in it!

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  Greetings! It is great to be back here...a-ranting and a-raving like the good old days. Ah the good old days...when we could walk the streets without facial coverings, interact with friends and family with a hug and/or a kiss, and enjoy some "adult time" with a close friend...new or old.  But  those days seem to be far back in our rear view mirror.  Please, if you haven't done so already, GET VACCINATED ! It doesn't only protect you from the COVID-19 virus, it helps you to protect others as well. Be the example to those you care about who are apprehensive. I can tell you, the virus is a much better alternative to what this virus can do to you.  And as always, my sincerest thanks for checking back in with us. You can look forward to more consistent postings, and some other options to get the word from me as I continue my journey being Fabat50 and beyond.  So let us begin... First, a thank you. Over the last year, life has changed for many of us. No matter ...

How is a "Social Butterfly" Survives the COVID-19 Isolation? Reconnecting!

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Diabolical COVID-19!! We are living in interesting times to say the least. We are seemingly “under siege” by a virus that seems to take no consideration for race, creed, socio-economic position, or any of the other factors with which we consider with others regularly. It feels strange that the best line of defense against this is isolation. For me, isolation can be a challenging thing. Even though I am an only child who enjoys my time alone, this feels different because it’s a strongly recommended practice. For those who know me, I think one of the adjectives you might hear most is that I am a social being. Not quite to the extent I have been in the past, but I draw energy from those around me. With little to no new energy in my space, I feel a bit stagnant. But I am finding ways to cope…one of which and I am surprised to even hear myself say this, is the social media outlets. I know, I have said in the past that so much of this behemoth in our world wasn’t always a great thi...

Hello, yeah it's been a while. Oh not much, how about you?

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Greetings all! If you recognize the song the title of this blog is from, drop me a private note, and I will send you something fun in a reply. Now...read on! Well, after another long hiatus, I am back in the blogosphere. I first want to say thank you to all of you who have been inquiring when this day would happen; it is appreciated. It has been a challenge getting back to this point, and the expression of concern and support has not only been overwhelming, but incredibly helpful as well. If you chose to read on, it will become a bit clearer why… When I started this blog back in November, I did so with the highest expectations…in myself. I have always tried to be “that guy;” the one you can rely on above all others. But over the last few months, “that guy” has been replace with “this guy;” unsure, unsteady, and not at all on his game. I have had brief periods like this in my life before, but not one that has lasted as long as this. It all seemed to have started just after th...

Im baaacckk...the redux!

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Greeting! Well I can only assume that many of you have forgotten about my quest for a more “fab” me at 50, but for those of you who haven’t…I’m back baby! I appreciate the expressions of concern for my lack of posting, but this new year has not been without its challenges. But as I type this, I can assure you that things are on the up for this guy, which I will elaborate a bit more later in this post. For now, I want to address some of the concerns expressed by folks after my lack of posting. Within the first weeks of this new year, I lost 3 very dear people in my life; two of them to suicide. Now, this is not going to be a tirade about suicide, or how losses make us stronger, or anything like that. It is just a statement of fact, and the facts are this; these three individuals are no longer on this plane with us. I am not going to share details on all of these individuals, and their importance in my life. That part is personal, just for me to know and cherish. Am I sad? T...

Fear and Loathing in Colorado...

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Well, November 2 nd and I am already facing some concerns about this journey even before I have truly begun. “Do I have it in me to do what it takes to reach my goals? “Am I being a selfish prick for wanting to look better?” “Are people going to laugh and ridicule me?” “Am I just too damned old to be concerned about this? I’ve never really been fearful of much in this life; not including heights, spiders, snakes, standing in water in shoes (long story), rollercoasters (which I am so over now) and the like. Fear was rarely in my vocabulary. And yet this new adventure is scaring the pants off me! Why? Portrait of a crier.. and no it's not me! :) I guess the biggest fear is failure. No one likes to fail, and I am no exception. But failure is always the potential outcome when embarking on something new. Failure doesn’t usually scare me, but in this instance it does. I think that’s one of the reasons why I chose to be somewhat public about this journey. I am a v...