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Don't Fear the Reaper...or Should You

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Do you feel the disconnect? Do you ever feel a disconnect between yourself and the rest of the world? I mean like, you feel like the rest of the populous is privy to the punchline of the funniest joke ever, but not only have you been unable to discern it for yourself, no one is offering any assistance to help either. Now don’t misunderstand, this is not a gnashing of teeth, railing at God, “why me” kind of thing. For me it’s a bit more complex. Gonna try to explain in this missive, so please stick with e if you can. I guess to make sense, I must start at the beginning. This past week I was rocked by the death of not one, not two, but three individuals that had at one time or another been a more regular part of my life. I have had to concluded that at this stage of the game, I should be more prepared for death. Yet a part of me feels as if I should rail against it, rather than add it to greeting card rotation for birthdays and holidays. But how do you attempt to accept som...

The New Normal...oh how I hate that phrase. Part I

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Welcome... “Welcome to the new normal” How I hate that phrase! Yet, almost daily, we seem to hear instances that make it clear that existence in our current world has been altered…forever. I am not fearful of change mind you, but what does cause me concern is the potential damage our fluctuating society of today is causing to our generations of the future. Over the next few posts, I will offer my own personal view on the “new normal,” and what it means in a few different facets of our lives. My hope is that you will continue to check back for new posts and begin to discuss what our “new normal” looks like in your own day to day. So, let’s get started! As many of you may know, I have been enjoying my commutes courtesy of the RTD light rail. It’s some of my favorite time as I can sit back and relax and enjoy one of my favorite new obsessions; pod casts! I have to say there is some AMAZING stuff out there, and it is effortless to access. If you aren’t already a fan, I urge...

Prières pour Paris; صلاة لباريس, and prayers for the bullies of the world!

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Hearts go out to Paris and Beirut Wow! To call this a week would be a gross understatement. Everything I am doing, these changes in my way of living, seem so minimal in light of the tragedies that occurred in Paris and Beirut. It seems so senseless and puts a lot of things in perspective. To those effected directly by these tragedies, and those of us peering through the windows at the sadness, my heart, and the hearts of many other go out to you. Be strong, and those intent on instilling fear and terror under the misguided name of religion will not win. With that said… It was all in all a great week! I had a doctor’s appointment, where the news was not only good, it was great! Cholesterol, both the good and the bad, at great levels, blood pressure was at an all-time low during an appointment, and the best part…my weight was down 10 pounds since my last visit! Now that said, my last visit was about 3 months ago, so that’s not saying a lot, but I will take the praise where I can...

Get some when you want some...get some?

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Hello all! Well, it is day four if this new lifestyle shift, and I have to say I am LOVING it! I feel great, the eating part is not nearly as tough as I had anticipated, and in short it has been great! Now granted, I realize it’s been only four days, and the next 10 will be the true test. I’ve been told if I can get to the halfway mark without losing my mind, I am home free… Some of the best times of my life I owe to the people in this pic... I even passed one of those big hurdle test; dining out with friends. Last night, I met some of my besties at a nearby place known for the quality of their pizza pie, Wyman’s. The smell when you enter the place is an assault to begin with, and when you start to see the food being delivered to the other patrons, it’s enough to make you crazy! But I held fast. Even when my buddy Shane ordered “cheesy bacon tater tots” my resolve didn’t crumble. I ate my chicken breast and green salad happily, and didn’t even let the thought of those del...

Taylor Swift was right...did I really say that?!?

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Protein and green...protein and green.. my new mantra! Well, tomorrow is the official start to the food part of this journey. I held off posting yesterday, as I was hit with a MAJOR case of sticker shock! Geez…why is trying to eat better so darned EXPENSIVE!! More than $250 later, I have the supplies to keep me sustained for the next…few days! As my guru on this journey, Jim Keizer, put it “eating well isn’t cheap.” “That’s one of the most f*&ked up parts of our society,” says the guru Keizer. “We should be subsidizing meats and vegetables to make them as inexpensive as freaking soda and chips! In my opinion…” In my opinion as well! I mean, you want to eat better, but where is that line between affordability and just plain crazy! Still, I got my proteins, my veggies (green only for the next two weeks) and I plan on rocking and rolling tomorrow. Much of the fear about this journey has subsided…well, except for the possibility of needing a bank loan to pay for it. Bu...

Fear and Loathing in Colorado...

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Well, November 2 nd and I am already facing some concerns about this journey even before I have truly begun. “Do I have it in me to do what it takes to reach my goals? “Am I being a selfish prick for wanting to look better?” “Are people going to laugh and ridicule me?” “Am I just too damned old to be concerned about this? I’ve never really been fearful of much in this life; not including heights, spiders, snakes, standing in water in shoes (long story), rollercoasters (which I am so over now) and the like. Fear was rarely in my vocabulary. And yet this new adventure is scaring the pants off me! Why? Portrait of a crier.. and no it's not me! :) I guess the biggest fear is failure. No one likes to fail, and I am no exception. But failure is always the potential outcome when embarking on something new. Failure doesn’t usually scare me, but in this instance it does. I think that’s one of the reasons why I chose to be somewhat public about this journey. I am a v...